A Hunger to Recover

There is a hunger inside me,

A hunger to recover..

Being pushed down so many times,

I have realized,

That you are the only true companion

Of yours..

There were days, 

When I searched for myself..

Those days were the days,

With shattered me,

Lost me, tearful me,

But..

Those days have gone,

 As

I have moved on

And

Things will change,

I will change them..

Today, 

In the midst of tears,

I found there was within me, 

An invincible calm..

I found that no matter how hard the world

Pushes against me ..

There is something in me..

Something stronger, better,

Pushing right back..!!

Peeping for Inner Strength..!!

Standing alone here,

The view is so different..

The view not everyone can dare to see,

The moments not everyone can experience..

Broken, shaken and shattered,

Looking for peace..

Peace of mind,

I feel so weak..

But, I know..

In this weakness lies my strength,

The strength that my inner self will provide..

The strength for which I don't need to depend on somebody..

Strength !! My inner strength..

Strength is sleeping ..

Sleeping in some corner of myself,

But..

It is the time to Wake Up..

And

Soon it will wake up.

Rise, Rise & Rise..!!

Cry in the evening,

Lighten your heart,

Fall into pieces,

Let the tears flow once..

Then when the morning rise,

Rise like a sun,

Shiny and bright..

Its your life, your story,

There are clouds,

Sometimes dark and heavy..

But you are the sun,

Peeping brightly through the clouds.

With each passing day,

Shine! shine like a star..

Twinkling in the dark clouds

Always Bright and high.

Rise, Rise & Rise..!!

एक कमी और आँखौ की यह नमी..

आज एक कमी हैं..

मुझमे मेरी कमी हैं,

 तभी तो इन आँखौ मे एक नमी हैं।।

लगता है कुछ रह सा गया है..

वक्त के साथ,

वोह आतम विश्वास बह सा गया हैं।।

इस बदलते दौर मे..

खुद को ही खो दिया हैं,

बदलना तो बहुत कुछ चाहती थी..

पर आज खुद को ही बदला सा पा लिया हैं।।

मैं हूं..

पर मुझमे..वो पहले वाली काव्या नही रही,

वो पल-पल रूठने-मनाने,

खेलने-कूदने, पढ़ने वाली,

खूब लड़ने, झगड़ने वाली

काव्या..

मुझ मे से निकलकर..

कही खो गई हैं।।

पाना चाहती हूं उसको वापिस..

वापिस उस काव्या को, बचपने भरी लड़की को,

पागल थीं, निकमी थीं,

पर वो काव्या बड़ी आपनी सी थीं।।

एक पराया पन पाती हू आपने मे,

क्युकि, आज मेरे लिए वो पहले वाली..

कमली, चुल-बुली काव्या, दानू..

एक याद बनकर रह गई हैं..
प्यारी याद..।। 

तालाश..

इस भागती दौड़ती ज़िदगी मे,

कही खो सी रही हू मैं..

सपनो को केवल आँखों मे बसाये,

सो रही हू मै....

रखा खा कदम घर से बाहर,

सपनो के पिछा कर कुछ बनने के लिए..

पर आज इस हकीकत की भूल भुलैया मे,

भटक रही हू मैं....

आज मशीन बन दौड़ता हैं इन्सान,

और इनही इन्सानी मशीनो के बीच,

अपना पन ढूँढ रही हू मैं....

तरह- तरह के लोग देखे,

प्यार करने वाले देखे..

बदलते समह के साथ,

बदलते हमसफर देखे..

और देखे मतलबी चहरे भी....

इसीलिए तो आज एक तालाश मे हू मै,

इंसानियत की तालाश....

Inexpressible..

            

The love so deep in the soul,

The feelings so vague to decide,

The memories so fresh to forget,

The moments so everlasting for not to think about…..

That..

Each gesture of care,

Droplet of rolling tear,

A hand to hold,

An ear to listen

 And

The patience to wait..

Wait forever…..

That….

All reminds me of a person,

Who cared..

Really did..!! 

आगे बढ़ आई..

अब उन बातो को यादों मे छोड़ आई,

साथ बुने ख्वाबों को जिंदगी की धूल मे कही खो आई..

फिर मिलने की उमीद लेकर,

मैं तेरा साथ यूही छोड़ आई..

ख्याल तो बहुत रखा था तुने मेरा,

कमबक्त मै ही अहसान उतारने के मौके पिछे छोड़ आई..

तेरे साथ हँसी खूशी का साथ निभाकर,

बेखबरी मे पता नही कब एक अंजान सी बन आई..

आज आँचल तो है, पर आँसूयों से भरा..

क्योकि हँसी के बहाने तो, सब मै पिछे छोड़ आई..

बस यादो से भरा अपना दामन, औंर उन बातो को छोड़,

आगे बढ़ आई..

मेरी पहली शिक्षक..!!

जिस दिन हुआ था जन्म मेरा,

उस दिन मिली थी मेरी पहली शिक्षक मुझे....

जिवन से लेकर संसकार तक,

सब दिया उसने मुझे..

आज इस शिक्षक दिवस पर,

करती हू उसे सलाम..

ना केवल सही राह दिखाने के लिए,

बल्कि हर पल साथ निभाने के लिए..

ना केवल एक अच्छी माँ हैं वो,

बल्की एक बेहतरीन शिक्षक भी हैं वो..

Happy Teachers’ Day Mom..:) <3

To Believe..!!

To believe..

is to know that it is never too late,

that everyday is a new beginning,

it is to trust that miracles can happen,

your dreams can come true..

To believe..

is to know the value of a loving heart,

the innocence of a child's laugh,

unconditional love of a dog,

and the beauty of an aging hand,

For it is through them we learn to love..

To believe..

is to look into yourself,

to find the strength and courage,

that lies there deep within you,

when it is the time to pick up the pieces,

And..

Begin again..

To believe..

is to know you are not alone,

the life you are given is a gift,

And this is your time to cherish it..

To believe..

is to know something good is going to happen,

that wonderful surprises are just waiting for you,

And all your hopes and dreams are within reach..

But..

All this is possible,

Only if you

BELIEVE..:)

I wish..:)

I wish I could understand,

Understand everything..

From a shedding tear to

An unstoppable laugh..

Big smile to a tensed mood..

Unwanted shyness to the long silence..

I wish…

Wish to stay..

Stay forever the way I am these days..

Stay as a free soul..

Who is smiling through the troubles,

Living with “Music loud, headphones in..”

Enjoying life with the true companion

A companion found in the self,

Singing, dancing, roaming, eating,

Living the life..

As if it is the only chance I have got,

Chance to enjoy, to live..

Chance to laugh out loud..

Really loud..:)

I Had a Dream !!

Feeling sleepy I,

Laying on my bed,

Thinking about walking alone,

On the roads of life,

With rocks and stones..

I was wondering,

“Was it the result of my deeds”….

Wondering and pondering,

Soon, I slept.

In my sleep,

I dreamt of a life,

Miles away,

A peaceful life,

Which every mind wishes of..

So do I!!

Step by step,

Moment by moment,

Trying hard to get there,

Moving forward I,

Not in terms of hours,

Days or years..

But in the terms of experiences,,

That teach me something every other day,

I found myself.

I was..

Not just going on in life,

But growing in life.

The dream was my reality,

Deep inside my head,

Was..

Visible a place,

A place far away….

Clustered into a lot of tomorrow’s

With no worries, tensions

But just a life,

A life, I focus on,

I dream of,

And I want to live!!

Life : A journey !!

Crawling on the floor,

Hiding behind the doors,

Never wanting any more,

Such was the childhood,

I spend..and want back..

Now I have grown up..

And

Everything has changed..

Days have passed,

Moments have become memories,

And

Childhood is still the time,,

Thoughts of which makes me sway..

But ahhhhh !!

Childhood has faded away..

To a place far, far away..

With every new day,

New dawn to dusk,

New things happen,

New people meet,

They walk with me

And then they leave…

But, life is good,

As long as..

I am doing the things I thought,

I can never do..

And is..

Pursuing my life,

Facing my fears,

With fun and laughter,

With heartache and tears..

Such is a grown up girl lives here in me now..

Searching for happiness..

No matter how near or far..

Dedicated towards never giving up..

Because life is life..

Sometimes it is good,

Sometimes it is bad..

So..

At times I will be happy,

At times I will be sad..